Wednesday, July 28, 2010

为明天 光良

当昨天画上句点
何不就让它悄悄入眼
看今天更光鲜
别忘了，还有明天
选，你将来的志愿
一步步，再慢慢去实现
不管路，有多远，有多险，有多倦
在那很美很炫的童话情节
我还拿着青蛙王子的剑
来披荆斩棘
去恶除奸
这甘愿画面
为幸福
为明天
梦，不一定要实现
心就会，有更辽阔空间
有想象，才能够，飞得高，飞得远
当昨天画上句点
何不就让它悄悄入眼
看今天更光鲜
别忘了，还有明天
选，你将来的志愿
一步步
再慢慢去实现
不管路，有多远，有多险，有多倦
在这无悔无怨的内心世界
我都见了美丽从容的脸
和酸甜苦辣一一尝遍
但是我情愿，为感动
为明天
痛，虽然又上眼前
泪擦干
那就会好一点
风虽然，看不见，但自由，无极限

songs do cure your heart :)
i miss fatty so much,
can i be more selfish?
i don't want him to leave me.
i want to be with him where ever he goes.
i want to stay in his arms forever :)

you are no doubt a pointless disaster.



i still feel empty in my heart.
its almost suicidal.
there's so many people around me,
i just don't know who to trust.
so many who backstab,
so many who conclude you for who you are not,
so many who view you in perceptions.
i don't know who is good or bad.
i just don't want to land myself in misery.
however,
being a loner hurts in someway too.
you just feel damn quiet you only hear your voice.
i refuse to let anyone in.
i refuse to share.
because i've been hurt so many times.
everytime i see someone,
i wonder if the person is one of the three i mentioned above.
i suspect
i keep my distance.
i isolate myself.
now im alone.
no matter how much i cry.
no one will hear me.
now let me answer to myself at least.
if i am going to do the same,
will i be able to look in their face not feeling guilty?
will you?
if you can do this,
you are inhuman.
there's only one word to describe you.
so i tell myself.
im not gonna be like them and sink to their level
i can live by myself.
i cry but i stand.
im afraid but everyday i hold my step.
i tell myself,
i will be strong one day.
watch me,
watch me grow.
i will not fall.

the path in front seemed so empty and far ahead.


Monday, July 26, 2010

today was such a busy day!
everyone was doing their own stuffs.
but me,
i am so pissed off now because i just realised my cutting mat and ruler is missing!
@#@#*&@$&$@##)#*@#*
i better find it tmr or i swear i will explode with anger.
fuck!
damn it.
bye.

im gonna find the culprit!


Sunday, July 25, 2010

hi people!
guess what?
i painted my nails a SEXY PURPLE COLOUR that grandma got for me!
she's so sweet,
sometimes she gets too over nagging, over possesive and forceful.
but she's nice if you really understand her.
you know,
everyone has their good and bad sides.
even bad people does have their good sides too.
its whether you want to find it or not.
for me,
i follow my emotions,
if i have been tricked far too many times,
i learn my lesson :)
anw, back to topic!
aww i love my nail colour!
although my nail painting skills sucks!
people like cuiyun and christabelle are fantastic nail painters,
if you want fantastic nails,
go find them!
hahahahha :DD
today i was very happy,
everyone was so nice!
huimin and i were singing to our heart's content :)
i miss darling SOOOO very MUCHH!
my cute little fatty only can msg me cause i was too busy to have dinner with him.
poor boy!
sayang my cute fatty,
i love you!hehehehehe
then for dinner we actually ate cai tao kweh!
huimin damn cute,
pronounced it as cao kweh!
hahahahaha me and yongxi over there blur.
LOL
singing rocks!
even though most of the time i sing out of tune,
but i just enjoy singing!
hahahahaha :)))))))
okay peeps.
my brother is excercising again today!
he excercises EVERYDAY
and by now at the age of 15 he already got 4 packs plus arm and leg muscles,
who want compare?
hahahhaha
im so lazy to excercise!
if only i got a teeny weeny bit of his spirit!
haha
okay,
im facebooking now!
gonnaa call cuiyun to chat.
then i gonna slp and do my sketch tmr!
who got solution for eye twitching!
my right eye have been twitching for four consecutive days already!
okay bye peeps!

i'd choose to let my mind wander than to shut it with belief.


Saturday, July 24, 2010

sobs, my mood is going downhill already
you know sometimes i just dowan to hurt some people around me and i agree to do sth.
but in the end im the one getting all the shit because im freaking late!
omg wtf man.
i totally regret.
i totally regret
i totally regret.
ARGHHH
words are of course easy to say,
but to sin and admit your sin is a thousand times harder.
how many people can do that?
how about you?
ask yourself :)
kk i keep it short.
my darling angry cause me nvr call him whole day.
sorry fatty!my fault dont angry ok?
hehe love you!
muacks :D

below and deep down, are humans most unknown secrets bound for eternity inside their hearts.



haha im very happy today!
once in a while ( i mean for a bloody long time)
i will get gives for my brother.
today i got a gift for him :D
im happy!
did not get for dad and mum cause the things were damn childish!
i like i like~
i got a folder for myself,
okay,
a cinderella folder!!!
its freaking beautiful i feel in love with 1st sight.
despite my age,
i still love disney alot!
sorry guys i cant post the pictures cause my picture too big it too forever to load.
hmm went to SMU today to do my project.
i really enjoyed the view to the buildings around there while on the bus.
sometimes, when you start to notice the little things,
you will learn to appreciate the beauty of them :D
today i was not angry at all,
perfect!
i dragged nicole with me to get starbucks coffee cause i just couldn't don't have my favourite coffee of all times!LOL
thank you nicole for accompanying me!
life starts to feel so much better when you can see the colours :D
you know what, i think i know my style of designing if im ever gonna be an architect!
im gonna design like victorian style?
you know the huge castle like building?
yesyes thats it!
im gonna bring back history :D
and the bus driver totally failed in driving lessons today!
imagine you carrying like freaking heavy stuffs,
then some idiotic driver keep jamming break damn hard and speeding when there is a chance.
i tell you, i was holding on for dear life!
omg will you die just slowing down?

everytime i start to think,
maybe i was wrong about a person.
i wanna change that mindset that a person might actually be good,
i was always proven wrong.
when im nice,
they get over it and step over it.
im hurt.
why do they do such stuff?
when they don't need me,
i'm never on their list i bet.
now now,
i know who's there and who's not
who's good and who's bad
so i wouldn't risk getting backstabbed.
haha

oh ya i just took a quiz on fb and it says:

What does your favorite color say about you?
Amanda's result is Purple
Purple! You are a very outgoing person. You love to have that special someone in your life! And love to get what you want. You love to try new things, and are down to do almost everything. You are a flirt!!! But once you are taken u tell the others to back off! You try not to hurt anyone but then you cant take care of everyones problems. Sometimes you only think about yourself, your not that good at giving advice but u are good at making people laugh!

haha, you know despite me having friends,
its rare someone will know this side of me.
no one knows im outgoing because i never go out and never show it.
no one knows i'm a flirt but a very dedicated flirt.
if i have a bf,
i will just tell you to get lost.
i will not betray the person i love.
why?
because i try not to hurt people,
especially the person i love :D
i'm a little selfish and egoistic.
and i sucks at giving advice since im a problem kid to.
but, i love to make people laugh!
it just makes my day!^^
now you know!
does it shocks you?
well get used to it if you know me :)

my baby is going to fetch me to celebrate his ahgong's birthday!
weee i miss him!
he so fat.
and he going army soon :(
me miss him!
me miss him!
me miss him super duper much!:DD

aahhh you turn my life upside down :)


Friday, July 23, 2010

WARNING!BITCHY MODE.LONG POST FULL OF RANTS AND VENTS!READ AT YOUR OWN RISK :)

have you been in a situation when you don't even know what you are doing?
have you been suppressing your feelings so much you don't know what you want anymore?
do you feel that that is supposed to me the way?
let things take its course?
i stop it.
i had enough.
i have been closed inside my own world for so long.
god knows how long?
why do i have too worry about everything?
because when i am aware,
i start to consider
when i consider,
i start to understand
when i understand i let myself become a target
something that people can shot on but i can never speak for myself
amanda,
i am solely throughly disappointed with you.
where have the brave you gone?
where have the happy go lucky crazy girl gone?
the you of that time could never let this minor stuffs affect you.
who cares about perception?
who cares about appearence?
who cares about how you think?
because not one single part of you is me so you will never understand me more than myself.
who cares about how you grown and should be MATURE because you're old?
if you want that why don't you just become so stiff and die not moving because you fixed yourself so much to rules and regulations that you TOTALLY ruined your life.
you've gone through so much,
you've learnt so much.
why let people keep thinking that you are just a kid?
why let them control your life.
my god. im such an idiot.
do you know where new things and products start coming out?
its when people think OUT of the box.
they dont plan so much that they don't have a life.
some people tell me that this may be pure stubborn.
let me tell you,
would i rather get sucked into your brainless thought or would it be better for me to think for my own so that i can answer for myself?
let me tell you one thing.
this would be the 1st and the very last time im gonna give way.
fuck you.
dont think you can step over my head just because i have mellowed over the years,
i am still me.
the same temper,
the same stubborness,
the same face.
my heart is telling me that i must do something that is why i can feel so many emotions vented into this post.
i can see my future,
my life.
i can finally reach out.
ok, with this post and releasing of emotions,
i shall aim to be a better person :)

andandand who the hell says makeup is for DAMN UGLY people!
which actress don't put makeup?
if you can't see don't assume say only when you got touch their face and feel yourself ok?
evidence is needed :)
and also, btw when ppl married never put makeup meh?
why they need to put?
because makeup helps to enhance your features and hide imperfections (like pimples)
so the face is still the same right?
i admit, we must not put on everyday,
its not good.
but simple makeup like eyeliner and lipgloss?
is more then enough to change your face.
so stop saying about thick makeup blahblahblahblah
if you don't put don't talk.
get it?

my blood boils when i think of a guy who actually said that i look horrid without makeup.
oh really?
then you damn hamesome right?
oh ya i almost forgot you were an uncle!
haha shit what is that wrinkles?
poor thing.
you know what,
im not a top beauty,
but at least i got no wrinkles,
1 dimple,
high cheekbones
and i look young!
so thank god.
im very happy already.
i count myself lucky :)
and i know i've been growing fat.
im still trying to adjust my diet.
haix so fat.
lalala should i go for fats treatment?
save time and effort!hahahaha

today time with darling was great!
i know that he will always support me from behind!
he is by far the best guy i've ever met!
so sweet and understanding.
i love him super lots!
andandand did i mention he's damn cute?
haha funny also always cheer me up when im down :)
i miss cy, jes, jx, limin.
today whole day never see them.
haix,
wonder they got miss me?xD
there's a whole lot of sweet people out there,
im gonna take my time to look for them :)
ok peeps i should be like doing work now but i couldnt control my temper and also to prevent my violent tendecy to bash ppl up.
haha!
sayonara!:DDDD

baby, i love you more than ever each day :)
the princess ♥


" i was born on n0vember
i am a sagittarius x=>
i can be y0ur ang3l or ur your worst nightmare. ;))
i would d3scribe mys3lf as a crazy girl. :D
i do not p0rtray thin as a form of beauty.to me being moderate is the prettiest. :DD
i believe in miracles & fairytales.
i think that life is beautiful
i feel that family & friends should be cherished.
i cannot live without air & water
i am temperamental
i love takopachi :DD
i am currently attached to MR goh zhao wei ;))"


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