Friday, July 23, 2010

WARNING!BITCHY MODE.LONG POST FULL OF RANTS AND VENTS!READ AT YOUR OWN RISK :)

have you been in a situation when you don't even know what you are doing?
have you been suppressing your feelings so much you don't know what you want anymore?
do you feel that that is supposed to me the way?
let things take its course?
i stop it.
i had enough.
i have been closed inside my own world for so long.
god knows how long?
why do i have too worry about everything?
because when i am aware,
i start to consider
when i consider,
i start to understand
when i understand i let myself become a target
something that people can shot on but i can never speak for myself
amanda,
i am solely throughly disappointed with you.
where have the brave you gone?
where have the happy go lucky crazy girl gone?
the you of that time could never let this minor stuffs affect you.
who cares about perception?
who cares about appearence?
who cares about how you think?
because not one single part of you is me so you will never understand me more than myself.
who cares about how you grown and should be MATURE because you're old?
if you want that why don't you just become so stiff and die not moving because you fixed yourself so much to rules and regulations that you TOTALLY ruined your life.
you've gone through so much,
you've learnt so much.
why let people keep thinking that you are just a kid?
why let them control your life.
my god. im such an idiot.
do you know where new things and products start coming out?
its when people think OUT of the box.
they dont plan so much that they don't have a life.
some people tell me that this may be pure stubborn.
let me tell you,
would i rather get sucked into your brainless thought or would it be better for me to think for my own so that i can answer for myself?
let me tell you one thing.
this would be the 1st and the very last time im gonna give way.
fuck you.
dont think you can step over my head just because i have mellowed over the years,
i am still me.
the same temper,
the same stubborness,
the same face.
my heart is telling me that i must do something that is why i can feel so many emotions vented into this post.
i can see my future,
my life.
i can finally reach out.
ok, with this post and releasing of emotions,
i shall aim to be a better person :)

andandand who the hell says makeup is for DAMN UGLY people!
which actress don't put makeup?
if you can't see don't assume say only when you got touch their face and feel yourself ok?
evidence is needed :)
and also, btw when ppl married never put makeup meh?
why they need to put?
because makeup helps to enhance your features and hide imperfections (like pimples)
so the face is still the same right?
i admit, we must not put on everyday,
its not good.
but simple makeup like eyeliner and lipgloss?
is more then enough to change your face.
so stop saying about thick makeup blahblahblahblah
if you don't put don't talk.
get it?

my blood boils when i think of a guy who actually said that i look horrid without makeup.
oh really?
then you damn hamesome right?
oh ya i almost forgot you were an uncle!
haha shit what is that wrinkles?
poor thing.
you know what,
im not a top beauty,
but at least i got no wrinkles,
1 dimple,
high cheekbones
and i look young!
so thank god.
im very happy already.
i count myself lucky :)
and i know i've been growing fat.
im still trying to adjust my diet.
haix so fat.
lalala should i go for fats treatment?
save time and effort!hahahaha

today time with darling was great!
i know that he will always support me from behind!
he is by far the best guy i've ever met!
so sweet and understanding.
i love him super lots!
andandand did i mention he's damn cute?
haha funny also always cheer me up when im down :)
i miss cy, jes, jx, limin.
today whole day never see them.
haix,
wonder they got miss me?xD
there's a whole lot of sweet people out there,
im gonna take my time to look for them :)
ok peeps i should be like doing work now but i couldnt control my temper and also to prevent my violent tendecy to bash ppl up.
haha!
sayonara!:DDDD

baby, i love you more than ever each day :)
the princess ♥


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